When I first started this blog, I was 32 1/2 years old.
Yesterday I turned 36.
It is amazing what I have learned in the last three and a half years.
Among a list of many things, one of the most important things is that I can do anything I put my mind to, but I cannot expect to do everything.
I tend to over-extend myself without even knowing it. I have tourettes of the word “YES”. I tend to say yes to anything. Even when I know in my head that I absolutely want to say no, I still say yes. It comes out without me even knowing it. I will go as far as to tell my friends that I definitely cannot add another thing to the list and then turn around and commit. I do believe it is an epidemic as I have numerous friends who also suffer from the inability to say no (you know who you are). The problem is, what seems like a lot of little things I commit to, when added together, become A LOT. There are some days that I feel I have more commitments and responsibilities than when I was working my corporate job full time. Sometimes I think I commit simply because I am afraid of being bored, but then I instead feel overwhelmed and unorganized. Not really the feelings I was going for.
Adding all of this to the fact that my children are getting older and their lives are getting busier, it is really making me evaluate this 36th year. This year, I am the Chair of a fundraiser in October, on the Board of an organization, trying to keep up with the kids schedules, this blog and simply getting household items done (grocery shopping, laundry, etc…you know the drill). I love it all but I am realizing that perhaps I need to slow down a bit. I have also begun turning down other volunteer opportunities because like I said, I cannot do everything. Slowly, saying no is getting easier.
Why am I telling you all this?
This was a very long way to explain that going forward, I am going to place the expectation on myself that I will post Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays here on Juggling in Heels. To be honest, having 5 posts ready a week is A LOT OF WORK. It takes a couple hours to put a post together at times and I am beginning to find myself rushed to put together something so that I can move on to the next item on the list of life. I want to ensure that each post has received the attention it deserves (I have worked too hard for all this!) and cutting back my posts to three days a week just makes sense. It also allows me more time to focus on these organizations that I really do care about and want to ensure I am giving them proper attention. Of course if I find inspiration I must share then I will post a bit more but I know it is nice to know when new content is available so this is the plan.
I welcome 36 with open arms as I feel that the 30’s have been the best decade yet and I cannot wait to see what is in store this year. Looking back I laugh at myself in my early 20’s, thinking I knew so much. I am quite confident today at 36 I really do not know much at all, yet slowly, I am beginning to figure some of it out.